Spring and a Cat

This is her face all the time. Wide-eyed and ready to attack.
Not pictured: her constantly thrashing tail. 

I don't have much of an update today, this is just an excuse to share some really ridiculous pictures of my cat.

Although "my" cat isn't quite right.

I'm not sure she's anyone's cat. She's mostly feral despite the fact that she's been raised by people since she was a kitten, and is showing no signs of slowing down into happy domestication any time soon. She lives indoors because I value the external wildlife too much to let her escape (she's also temporarily paralyzed by outdoor things no matter how many times she's sat in the sill of an open window and observed the outside world -- something I regularly exploit so I can get things done without her being underfoot). I can have the window open for 20 minutes, during which time she'll sit a few feet away and just stare at it intently, as if the elder gods themselves were planning on popping through for a cuppa at any moment.

Of course, once she gets used to it, I need only to close the window for ten minutes, then open it again and we repeat the whole staring process again.

Boxes are another diversionary tactic.

 I've been doing some spring cleaning lately and getting ready for the big move in June. I'm also hoping to redirect some of this extra energy toward things I've wanted to do for a while, to get back in touch with the woman I was before my last job. It's been difficult -- I feel like there's so much other noise in my head that blocks out the clear goals and hopes I had before. I'm working hard on unraveling the tangled mess, but it's very hard and makes me irritable. That said, the alternative isn't great and the journey is worth it. Who knew that the obstacles within are the hardest to overcome?

Okay, right, so everyone knows that.

I'm also working on overhauling habits and goals I've left unattended for years. Again, it's not an easy process but with Spring here (Happy belated Ostara!) it's the perfect time to grow and change. I find that I'm very much in sync with the seasons right now (for better or worse) and find the blooming of the flowers and industry of the bees reflected in my own thoughts and efforts. For now it's a good thing, although I'm still reeling from the toll winter took on me.

Right, so! Fitness has been pretty good. I took a week off for absolutely no reason at all and I regretted it the entire time, but here's to moving forward! I started today angry and grumpy (it was so, so cold and I was extremely tired) and was still grumpy and angry when I finished, but it's getting better.

I'm really, really looking forward to the warming weather. This is going to be a wonderful season and for the first time in memory I'm not waiting til the leaves come to take advantage of it.

I'm done putting things off til arbitrary milestones happen. The time is now!